In Memory. Riley keough He spoke about his grieving journey before the anniversary of his brother Benjamin Keough’s death.
“I’m really consciously trying to be present, and not use anything as any kind of escape, and be aware of when I’m doing that,” said the 32-year-old actress. Fashion on Tuesday June 29 “.[I’m] trying to operate in love, and keep my heart open, and give and receive love. And not in a woo-woo way, because I definitely have rough days, and all kinds of pain and suffering and all that. “
The California native noted that her “expectation is not just to feel joy,” adding: “Once I have started doing that, I can find more joy in the little things and smile at the cups of coffee and flowers. It is much easier for me. … That has been a real change for me in finding those moments and things to smile about. “
Benjamin committed suicide in July 2020 at the age of 27. Riley posted a touching tribute to her late brother days later in an Instagram post.
“Mornings are the hardest. I forgot that you are gone “, the Zola star wrote at the time. “I cannot cry for fear of never stopping. A pain that is new to me. Your. There are no words for you. Angel is the closest thing I could think of. Pure light. Baby brother. Best friend. Wild man. Intellectual. Witness of my life. Soulmate. Protective. Too sensitive for this harsh world. I hope you give me the strength to bear the giant hole you left in my heart. I hope you give me the strength to eat. I hope you are cradled by love. I hope you feel my love. I hope you feel like God. You are God. I can’t believe you left me. Not your sweet Ben Ben. Nobody but you. I guess this is a real heartbreak. I hope we meet again. “
Elvis Presley’s granddaughter went on to get “Benjamin Storm” tattooed on her collarbone in honor of her younger brother.
Three months later, on what would have been the singer’s 28th birthday, Riley honored the “beautiful angel” via Instagram with retro photos.
The Golden Globe nominee plans to become a doula of death, which is a professional who helps people at the end of their lives and provides support to families who are dealing with the losses of their loved ones. Riley finished her training in March.
“I felt like writing a deep thank you to this community that is teaching and training people in the conscious work of death and death,” he said. American honey Star wrote via Instagram at the time. “They teach us that it is a morbid topic to talk about. Or we were so scared that we can’t talk about it … then of course it happens to us, and we are very poorly prepared. I think it is very important that we are educated about conscious death and dying in the same way that we educate ourselves about conscious birth and delivery. We prepare so rigorously for the entry and we have no preparation for our exit. “